My soul landed on Mother Earth, 23 August, 1974, in the north of the Netherlands. My parents gave me the name Esther. Later in live I chose my name Qizenna. As a child you could always find me connecting in nature with the element and animal worlds or sketching in my room. Drawing, nature, my elemental friends and all animals were my passions as a child. The nature and animal kingdoms of Gaia, where and are in every moment divine love, truth and purity. They assisted me in every breath growing up in this realm of humanity that felt so un-real and terrifying to me as a child.
I knew intuitively that something was not the way it suppose to be, but it took me many years later to awaken fully into my truth of light and therefore into the truth of the game we play as souls in this realm of Gaia. Having the opportunity to expand our own and collective consciousness while we do our healing dance between light and dark towards the path of our inner light of wisdom, love and truth. Through healing and transforming our own shadows and activating our true light of love, we all helped Gaia in her transition to the Golden Age, that is fully active now. Thank you family!
As a child I started to lose the connection and during puberty, I fully lost contact with my creative and playful inner child, wisdom and light of truth. Like so many of us did. I became a rebel for freedom and felt totally ready leaving the parental home by the age of 16. Wanting to experience the game of live on my own. I hated school, so when I got the opportunity at the age of 18 to work as a sales women in a clothing store I decided to jump into the world of fashion. For 14 years I worked as a window dresser, visual merchandiser and manager.
I loved creating the perfect atmosphere in the store and getting the team moving in a creation flow of unity and harmony. I worked with the Chinese Astrology, my way of creating the perfect team and element cycle of creation. And it worked every time. Behind a “mask” I had the freedom to observe the human behavior for 14 years. These years have proved to be very valuable years. This experience assisted me in helping understand the collective and individual dance of live between shadow and light. Every soul was a mirror I needed in that moment.
Life was and still is my education and my heart has always led me in the right direction. I have had a rather busy life, moved and traveled a lot. With the highs and lows that gave me the opportunity to learn and expand. During this lifetime, healing others, creativity, dancing, animals, traveling, nature, children and curiosity about the bigger picture has always been my focus points. The joy of my heart.
When I turned 27, a big change came into my life. I started studying at the Dutch School for Classical Shiatsu in The Hague. Working with energy, the elements cycles and the meridian system, felt like coming home. Ancient soul knowledge began to awaken. And my unrest began to transform to inner peace. After years of practicing Shiatsu next to my job as a Shop manager and window dresser in the Retail and later as a creative caretaker for the disabled souls, the desire began to awaken to let my healing work merge as one with my creativity. At the end of 2012 after an awakening inner healing journey, in which the connection to my inner heart passions where restored, I began to sketch and paint again. Starting at child level.
There followed a period in which I learned myself how to paint. I have been a painter before in another life, so I re-learned myself how to paint rather quickly. After my sudden and explosive Kundalini awakening in 2013, I stopped after 12 years, giving Shiatsu healing to others. I needed to heal and transform myself in every breath.
After this kundalini awakening, I experienced all kinds of new weird diseases. My body needed to let go of very deep unconsciousness layers of trauma, fear, lack of self-love and self-worth. Before my soul came to Earth, I chose to heal myself in the shamanic way. Because of this way, I always need to listen to the path of my heart, work through my fields of emotions and speak my truth, if not, my body becomes very sick. Forcing me to get back on track by listening to my heart, healing myself and work through the layer of shadow that needs my love and light.
During this period of deep inner work, my ways of self healing started to merge with my creativity. I needed to be in nature to heal myself and so I did for 4 years. My heart and soul forced me to let go and detach myself from everything. My intention brought me to a beautiful place in the middle of nature in Belgium. Where I had the opportunity to live as a hermit with my loving two dogs and dive deep into my inner shadow work. Here my healing started to merge with my creativity. I re-learned how to open, heal, transform my inner shadows and how to activate and anchor in the new higher light and aspects within myself, through my intuitive painting, combined with energy movement, the healing powers of the elements and sound frequency,
While I was moving towards the true path of my soul, a lot of experiences of former incarnations on earth and through out the cosmos awakened and came to the surface. My souls memory stared to become clearer in every breath. Re-learning about all that I am, past, present and future. Working through my shadows layers where great opportunities to expand my inner wisdom of creative element healing and there fore my healing offerings for the collective.
In 2016 I experienced a beautiful inner journey that assisted me with healing my inner child. A old trauma needed my light of healing. After that my creativity started to explode. I became a infinite source of creativity. I transformed and anchored in the light of my healed inner child, by making two children paintings and writing children stories and songs. During the making of my children story Loveland, digital art came into my vision. I wanted to use the two children paintings for the illustrations for my Book. So it was time to dive into the Digital Art experiment. A period of self study followed once again. And by trial and error I slowly started to understand how to work with a digital art program. For my digital Art I started to use my Element picture’s and video’s. A new creative way and level of connecting with the element consciousness and codes awakened.
In 2017 I moved towards a Global Sisterhood. I was guided to create Higher Self portraits for 20 sisters around the world. While doing this, a power within myself awakened. I re-learned how to consciously connect via the heart grid to my sister, and translate the language of energy, light and frequency to images and words. I asked their Highest Light what was ready to be integrated and activated. in that moment. This beautiful creative process with my sisters, activated my inner wisdom of how I can assist others on a dna and quantum level.
After 4 years of living in the middle of the forest, I reached the point of fully loving myself. I had embodied all that I am and saw my new path very clearly. I was ready for a new jump. Shortly after a experience brought me back to the North of the Netherlands. I re-landed in my birth town in January 2019. My path was clear and I new what I needed to create to walk towards my new path. For 5 months I worked on a playful New Earth study book, game, songs and Loveland weekends for children. A co-creation project that will assist children on their path of awakening towards their unique inner wisdom, truth and love. For now the website is only in Dutch, because I’m working towards a co-creation here in the Netherlands. Click HERE if you want to take a look.
All that I am is here to heal, balance, transform, anchor in and activate the higher Element codes and keys for you, our beloved Gaia, and the Element(al) worlds that live inside and outside each and everyone of us. I do this through my Shiatsu based Quantum Healing , Art expressions, co-creation projects, Element story telling, singing, playing and my daily ceremony work in nature.
My path has always been, “past-present-future”, about Mother Earth, the Elements, Elemental-, Animal Kingdoms and the Children of grace. My innerchild is my best guide, and I’m here to show others that creativity ,playfulness, connecting to the Elements and nature ceremony is a great way to awaken your pure higher heart of wonder and find your path towards infinite happiness.
For personal assignments or creative unity projects you can contact me via email and Facebook. Email: firstname.lastname@example.org (copy-paste), Facebook direct chat link.
Thank you for being you, and thank you for being here..