My soul landed on Mother Earth, August 23, 1974, in the north of the Netherlands in the town of Heerenveen. My parents gave me the name Esther. Later in life I gave myself another name, Qizenna.
As a child you could find me in nature or I was drawing in my room. Drawing, nature and the animal kingdom were, and still are my greatest passions.
Like so many of us, I lost touch with my creative and playful inner child during puberty. I was a rebel for freedom and felt completely ready to leave the family home when I was 16. I wanted to experience the life dance myself. Learning to fall and get up again. And so I often did.
Life was and still is my education and my heart has always led me in the right direction. I have had a very busy life, moving and traveling a lot. With the highs and lows that gave me the opportunity to learn and grow. Throughout this life, healing myself and others, animals, travel, nature, children, curiosity about the bigger picture and creativity has always been my focus point.
When I turned 27, a big change came into my life. A Thai massage course that I took while traveling through Thailand triggered my curiosity about the power of energy and the elements. Back in the Netherlands I decided to study at the Dutch School for Classical Shiatsu in The Hague. Working with energy, the element cycles and the meridian system felt like coming home. Old soul knowledge began to awaken. And my turmoil feelings began to transform into inner peace. After years of practicing Shiatsu in addition to my job as a retail store manager and later as a creative counselor / caretaker for multiple mental and physical disabled clients, the desire arose to let my healing work merge with my creativity. That resulted in healing energetically and creating art at the same time.
At the end of 2012 I experienced a powerful inner healing journey, in which the connection with my inner passion and inner child was restored. I started sketching and painting again. Starting at the child level.
A period followed in which I taught myself to paint. And how to heal myself through intuitive painting, combined with energy movements, the elements cycle and sound frequencies. Years later, at the end of 2016, while creating two children’s paintings for a children’s story, digital art came into vision. I wanted to use the two paintings as illustrations for my children book Liefland. It was time to dive into a new experiment, digital art. A period of self-study followed again. After making many mistakes, I slowly began to understand how to play with a digital art program.
For my digital artworks, I started to use my element photos and videos. An new way of working with the consciousness of the elements.
After my sudden and quite explosive Kundalini awakening in 2013, I stopped giving Shiatsu to others after 12 years. I had to heal myself in every breath. For those unfamiliar with the term kundalini, it is the moment when your soul awakens in your body. The connection between heaven and earth is there again, expanding your consciousness and mind. The energy literally rushes through your body and from that moment on you will start to see the truth of the bigger picture and the truth of your soul.
After the awakening of the kundalini energy, the journey of remembering and healing old wounds begins. Likewise for me. My body had to acknowledge, embrace, heal, release and transform very deep unconscious layers of trauma, fear, lack of self-love and self-worth. Years of all kinds of new and inexplicable weird diseases followed. Every illness was essentially an unprocessed trauma, from this life, but also from other lives. The memories and trauma of my other lives here on Earth and other dimensions surfaced to heal them. This period of remembering is also known as the dark night of the soul. You experience periods when you think you are going crazy because everything you thought was true turns out to be totally different. You come to the realization that you are everything and that everything lives in you. Your inner cosmos becomes visible and tangible through your portal of love, your heart.
During these years of self healing and awakening of my soul, I lived in the middle of the forest, surrounded by water. These years of inner self healing in a natural environment, along with my creative inner spark, gave me the opportunity to work on different levels with the elements consciousness, the realms of nature, my inner universe and many inner aspects of my soul. This led to my ability to translate the language of the soul into images through various art expressions.
In the middle of the beautiful Belgian Ardennes, I was able to learn how to assist myself and others on a DNA level on their path of awakening and self-love. I now do this through my Quantum Art sessions, many art expressions, writing spiritual children’s books, singing, playing and ceremony work together with nature.
My path has always been, “past-present-future”, about Mother Earth, the Elements, Elemental-, Animal Kingdoms and the Children of grace. My innerchild is my best guide, and I’m here to show others that creativity ,playfulness, connecting to the Elements and nature ceremony is a great way to awaken your pure higher heart of wonder, balance and infinite happiness.
Thank you for being you, and thank you for being here..
A donation to keep my creativity flowing is always highly appreciated and heartfelt. Namaste.